I'm constantly amazed by people's ability to contradict themselves. I don't understand how people can be so dishonest with themselves, and on such a superficial level, at that.

I just got off the phone with a friend who is having a pretty rough time. We had a good conversation that reminded me of a similar point in my life. It's weird to think about that time now. The stress of school is long removed from my world. I wanted to leave Chicago so bad, and I wasn't quite sure what to do about it, which continue to add to my stress level.It all culminated with some tears shed during a snowfall outside of Keegans. Such a relief. I didn't leave as I had wanted to, but if I left I most likely would have never met Lindsay (not to be gushy-gushy lame). After visiting Montreal last winter, I was right back to that point. It's strange to feel like you don't belong in your own home, like you can't relate to your own friends. Thinking about it now, I can't relate to me at that time. It's funny how things change. Earlier this evening, Mia and I were talking about life and love. Thinking about that time when Lindsay and I met is funny now, but at the time it was so stressful. A lot of things were said and assumed about me, that were not at all true, which was frustrating. I had never had to deal with anything like it before. It's amazing to me how petty people can be, and how ignorant. That stress is so far behind me now, and while my desire to leave here is still alive and well, I'm far more content than ever before (aaawww barf).

I want my "achy breaky heart" ringtone. I wish that I could fall asleep, or at least I wish that I had someone to play Scrabble with. I listened to a lot of John Coltraine and Howlin' Wolf, which has inspired me to go blow some money at Reckless tomorrow. I read a pretty good interview with Ron Carter, the jazz bassist, which was inspiring on some level but also sort of turned me off on him. He's an incredible player, but he seems to have a pretty massive ego. Maybe he deserves it.

I miss Jessica. I don't want to have to go to Detroit just to see her. They do have Tim Horton's there...